The Amanah of Sons | Christal Joan

Bismillahir rahmanir raheem

Before I gave birth I was convinced I was having a girl. All of my friends had girls and I was convinced it was girl season. Β At the time, my mum was adamant I shouldn’t find out what I was having and subhanAllah it seemed like Allah swt already had his plan.Β At my dating scan, I was MORE than ready to find out what I was having but when the sonographer checked my baby flipped around and clamped it’s legs closed.

So I researched every old wives tale to try and determine what I was having and all signs pointed to girl. I carried on in my ignorant bliss. I had the name all picked out (I had one for a boy too but didn’t think I’d be in need of it). Matching hijabs, praying together, it was going to be perfect. So, when I went into labour I was over the moon. Alhamdulillah it was text book, gas, air and around 4 pushes and the baby was out.

IT WAS BOY!

I wish I could have taken a picture of my face because it must have been a picture! A boy! I hadn’t planned for this!

Indeed, Allah [alone] has knowledge of the Hour and sends down the rain and knows what is in the wombs – Surah Luqman ayah 34

For the first few hours (scratch that, days) Β just stared at him. All this time it was a boy. Allah swt had always decreed a boy. And I couldn’t be more happy! We make dua for things all the time, and trust me I made LOTS of dua for a girl, but Allah swt knows what we really need to soothe our hearts. I needed my son alhamdulillah. InshaAllah I hope in the future Allah swt does bless me with a girl but right now, I couldn’t be more grateful.

One day inshaAllah he will grow up to be a loving husband, father and active member of his community. He will lead his family in prayer and be the Amir of his household. He is the only maharam that has been born to me so far and inshaAllah has the pleasure of accompanying me to Hajj if needs be. La hawla quwatta illah billah!

My dear son, this post is for you. To show you that when you have a plan, Allah swt has a bigger and better plan. Always trust in Allah swt and he will never let you go astray. Hold firm to his rope and He will always pull you to safety.

May Allah swt bless our children with piety and righteousness, may they lead this Ummah into the light of Allah swt and may Allah swt bless us further with more amanahs in the form of children, Ameen.

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